Do I know when God touches me?

You can tell from the title that this blog is about my faith. I hope you don't not read it because of that because this has been on my heart alot lately.
This discussion is about the Holy Spirit. Who, what is the Holy Spirit and what does it have to do with me? The bible never refers to the Holy Spirit as "it". The Holy Spirit is referred to as He. There are three equal parts to the Trinity. It is the Father, Son and the Holy Ghost. Why do we not talk about the Holy Ghost? Does that sound to mystical?
The Holy Spirit lives within us. He should be our best friend. Most of this blog will be my thoughts on recognizing the Holy Spirit. Ephesians 4 versus 30 says "And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption." This means to me that the Holy Spirit will be there with us at judgement day. He knows our heart and He has been trying to draw us closer to God our whole life.
Now let me talk about how I believe the Holy Spirit has worked in our lives. First of all, I believe that the Holy Spirit is an inner conscious that is telling us to do or not do things. When people say "God talked to me", more than likely they felt they had a thought cross through their mind that they felt was consistent with the teachings of the bible and what God would want them to do.
We can debate all day long whether the Holy Spirit is just your self conscious or something deeper but it does come down to faith. Plus when you open your heart and mind to the idea that it is coming from something more divine, then you realize that you are allowing God to change you. (Faith is believing in something you can not prove or see. Everybody would believe in God if they had proof.)
For me, the first belief in the Holy Spirit starts as a child. Even as a child, going to church felt right. While I often wanted to skip out and go to Granddad's, when I went you just felt a since of doing something good in your heart. The reason I didn't want to go to church had more to do with my shyness than it did anything else. Watch any child. When they do something extremely unselfish and strickly for the benefit of others, they have this overwhelming happiness in them. You may not be as able to see it in other kids as you can relate to it when you think back on your childhood. You know that feeling was overwhelming.
Second, I believe that it isn't a coincidence that those people that are good are drawn to the Lord. Granddad and Grandma were GOOD people. Grandma was constantly drawn to Christ but was too shy to go to church. I don't know about Mickie, but Mom, Wes and Joann all went and joined a church. I believe they were drawn by their believes in Christ and the Holy Spirit touching their hearts.
Third, when have you felt closes to God. I have always felt closes to God when I believe I am doing good works. Good works in itself doesn't get anybody to heaven. Jesus died for us. We can't do anything greater to get ourselves to heaven. We have to have faith in Him. When I get in front of God, I want Jesus to say "God, Brent is one of mine. I know him." How will He know me? I talk to Him everyday. The Holy Spirit working in my heart is part of Him. We become one.
People misinterpret the Holy Spirit in our heart. It's not karma, universal alignment, or any other outside force. I bet you have had Holy Spirit thoughts while reading this blog where you thought that you should do something or not do something.
I miss having older ladies in the neighborhood that we looked after. I miss leading small groups of people who are hurting because they are going through a painful divorce. I have to look for ways to serve and I haven't been very successful. A big reason for this blog is it allows me to express this feeling.
Mom has been a great example our whole life. She has always wanted to volunteer and serve others. I just want people to open their minds to the idea that her desire to do more for others is more than just a good idea. It is something deep within her. I believe it is the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit knows her heart.
Okay, this is the tough part: My eyes are full of tears because I believe that the Holy Spirit is crying over our pain. Jesus feels our pain. He is working to heal us. He has done some healing with babies, library and book club friends, graduations, etc. Time is the biggest healer. The Holy Spirit is probably trying to talk to us more right now if we let Him and believe that it is coming from Him. There is a song by Michael W Smith "Open the eyes of my heart".
We don't live in heaven. We live in a fallin world with sin. Bad things happen. Hate the world and rejoice in the fact that there is something much greater at the end of our journey. Dad and I talked and he knew that Jesus knew him. He talked to Jesus alot on the way to work. That gives me great comfort.
Meet my best friend....The Holy Spirit.